Please Help Me I cant take it anymore?

You’re in the wrong section, this is not a cancer question and you do not have cancer. I’m very surprised a doctor was willing to do an EUS and your insurance was willing to pay for it. You say you just want your life back and “it” has taken over your life, but “it” is you. Therefore this is in your control, cancer patients are not so lucky. Find a therapist, psychologist or someone to help you.